Nevada Blues

The crappy/uncrappy things that went on along the time span of this week in bullets with no particular sequence:

• I forgot to mentioned how we had our Job Interview on Monday and I got to work in this autoshop-slash-doorsmeer thingy courtesy of Kosim along with another 3 dudes and we're expected to start right after SA is over. The bad thing about it is that we have to work a full-day shift for five days which means it's 8-to-5 full-on work and I don't think I could manage that.

• Try-outs are supposed to be tomorrow and I didn't know that it wasn't exactly mandatory for us until like two hours ago, but I guess my parents will flipped out if they found out that I purposely miss a try-out. So, yeah.

• Oral exams had ended a week ago but I'm still feeling jittery about the results because I totally ruined my English oral by blabbering nonsense and unimportant stuffs to the invigilators which is kind of sad considering the fact that I was totally confident ready before I take the exam.

• The trip to Perth is a go-go which is kind of surprising since I was expecting it to be a no-go considering the fact that almost none of us displayed any kind of form of enthusiasm when the trip was announced. But now that I guess it's kind of official, it's gonna be fun fun fun.

• you make me laugh a lot this week which is great and i love you for that and please don't lose hope in me because I will never lose hope in you

• SA starts on Monday, and I'm feeling sooo freaking nervous. Secondary life is a cycle of neverending misery. In the first year they will shock you up with a ton more subjects and a lot more boring teachers (can't really blame them though), and then at sec 2 they'll put you for checkpoint, third year is all about tests tests tests and national exams and tests tests tests, and I don't think I would even be alive for my fourth year.

• Right after hell SA is over I swear I'm gonna dye at least half of my hair. I'm as free as my hair baybehh yeehh~

• "Penggalauan masal" oh my god. Blame my crazy friends, Taylor Swift, and guitar.

• I can't get over this painting. It's just so... amazing.

photo courtesy of thephoebejeebies

• I miss my *~b3St FrAnn~* :-(

• I might or might not go to Singapore for Christmas. I dunno.. It's kinda boring I guess, but Yen told me she's also going but I guess we won't meet since she'll be off to Thailand soon. I have a feeling that this holiday won't be a pleasant one for me.

• Breaking Dawn does not make any slightest sense. And the werewolves animation looks sooo fake.

• Bob Marley is so brilliant he could change people's lives. Everyone should listen to his music. and Gnarls Barkley's

• dats dat. gudbaii! <3

Sunset In A Cemetery

" Neurotic, ha!"  I let out a scornful laugh. "  If neurotic is wanting two mutually exclusive things at one and the same time, then I'm neurotic as hell. I'll be flying back and forth between one mutually exclusive and another for the rest of my days."
Buddy put his hand on mine.
"  Let me fly with you."   - The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath "

source: tumblr

This week has been an unbearably insane one.

I still can't comprehend the fact that they just buried my own grandmother this Monday. And for the past few days I kept on dreaming about how the wet and worm-filled soil is treating her down there. It wasn't actually a nightmare, but not a good dream either. It's just like that dream that all of a sudden came up to you at night because you can't stop thinking about it when you're awake.

And I thought with me being absent for two days in school, I would have miss a ton loads of lessons. But instead, I found myself in a state of utter boredom and clearly un-panic just two hours after I arrived at school on Wednesday.

And then of course, as if my raging-teenage-hormone-filled life would not be complete without it, a creature of the same species of the opposite sex is currently on my mind for the past few days for 24/7! The last thing I want right now is to face another middle-school drama and get hurl back into a state of heartbroken. Again....
But the feeling is too mutual and unbearable.. I ... can't ... stop... And to whom it may concern, god, you had no idea!

Oh, and, um, to a/some particular girl(s) in my school who think that I actually care about them and their lives and all that dramas: ef wai ai, nope I don't give a piece of freaking shite on your lives. I've got mine to concern about so I don't think I could actually spend some time trying to care about yours let alone to be concern and talk about it. Kayyy.

Anyway, picture from last afternoon:

See the rest of it in Sasha's blog here :)

Now, I'm just gonna go watch the new season of Vampire Diaries until the sun rises back again. I'm still pissed that Stefan is now out of the scene,, which means less Paul Wesley-hotness. But Ian-Nina is just too cuteeee so I think I could still manage until they finally find out where the heck is Stefan.

Ciaoh!